With this ring I thee wed...

I _____, take you ______, to be my wedded wife/husband. To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do us part.

If only there was a warning that came along with these words. Something like...
WARNING: Not as easy as it looks.
WARNING: This will take LOTS of work.
WARNING: Even after marriage you still have your own personal views.
WARNING: Certain habits NEVER change.

Yes I'm sure I've heard some advice similar to this before the wedding took place but it's funny how you can look at your soon to be spouse and smile and say "No we will never have those problems."

So me and Zac got caught up in a little heated  conversation about money and babies. Why are those always the two biggest things that cause a marriage stress?

I'm ready to start planning for another baby and Zac does not think it is the right time. And of course we both have different opinions on our money situation. So hard to agree on such big things especially when we are both emotionally invested in our own opinions so strongly. So of course I played it cool and gave the silent treatment for awhile last night. So mature right ;) Hey I have my moments!!!

After some thought today...it's probably for the best that I just let the topic go. I need to be more cautious about money. Zac is the one who does the budgeting and if I need to spend money maybe the right thing to do is bring it up to him (aka ask him) if that purchase would fit into our budget or not. I have to trust that Zac cares enough about Cheyenne and me both that he won't deprive us of things that we need. Now things that we want sometimes you got to hear "no" and that's just part of life :)

As for the baby itch. I'm just going to let it go for now. This one I'll leave to God. I know that he will provide us with another child when the timing is right. I mean I'm not crazy I know there is a few more steps involved then that wink wink but I'm just going to let what happens happen and hopefully Zac can respect that also. He would like to wait a few more years but I don't want anymore then a 3 year age gap in between Cheyenne and a sibling and she'll be 2 in September so in my eyes the baby clock is ticking... tick tock tick tock...

I just want another one of these little snuggle buddies and a friend for Chi-Chi
(and we seem to make cute little babies so why not go for another one hehe)


Well...once again this is my lesson in not trying to control my own life and situations...I just need to let things happen...it's so much more natural and easy to take that way. If you think about it I didn't plan out Cheyenne and look how that turned out so God knows what he's doing here.

chow

Blessed are all they that put their trust in him.
(Psalm 2:12)